Grief

So as many of you readers may or may not know(depending if you are just joining the blog) I am divorced and remarried. And today something has happened that I have been dreading for a long time. A death of a family member in my ex's family. See I don't fully fit in anymore as I have moved on but I have a 2 year old son with my ex so in many ways we are still very much connected.  Grandpa Don left the world today and  honestly it is hitting me harder then I thought it would.  See my ex and I moved to Indianapolis where they lived to be closer to him and grandma and the other family out there after I lost a baby due to still birth. I ran far away from Ny and my problems and needed to clear my head. He and grandma welcomed us with open arms and hearts and was so excited to have Andrew close by. She would often ask if he was CEO yet of his company. Grandpa was the biggest kid at heart. He was a principal and was so great with kids. The picture below shows him rocking my nephews race car hat. There is a video too of him pretending to start the engine and shift gears.   I will miss him and his smile.