Let me say I was called out in a good way! Every first Sunday at our Ward we have time to get up and share our testimony. Since attending a new Ward I haven't been 109% comfortable getting up and speaking in front of the much larger group. After all I went from a small Ward where everyone knows everyone to the largest in the Stake. So when it came time during Relief Society I knew I had to share. But again anxiety gets the best of me and I could not get up on my own. However I kept hearing this voice saying I needed to share. A few sisters mentioned how when they pray they may get a few different answers depending on what they ask. Those answers can range from a "yes,not right now and no something else is planned" so I wanted to share but was to nervous. Earlier before thenhournstsrted the President of Relief Society met me and was so sweet! So I should have known that Heavenly Father would have her get up at the end and have me share. She got up from her seat and there I thought "ok I am home free. Maybe next month." And she said she wanted to have me introduce myself and share with the group if I wanted. I then told her how I felt like I really needed to share but didn't and thought I almost got away with not sharing. But His plan was clearly different! I shared briefly how I lost Matthew and for years I prayed to Heavenly Father for another child. And I knew it was a not right now answer. And finally with my son Seth who was in his car seat next to me I said " I finally got my answer and it was now. 5 months ago when he was born." I feel like Heavenly Father knew I needed to share with these sisters that even after years of waiting I still had this faith and my prayers had come true. I was also feeling so strongly after a lesson on the Mustard seed verses from the bible.
"And Jesus said unto them, Because of your unbelief: for verily I say unto you, If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place; and it shall remove; and nothing shall be impossible unto you." Matthew 17:20
This verse is something I think of so often. I even have a beautiful necklace with an excuse mustard seed in it with a charm saying where to find the bible verse (ie Matthew 17:20) I named my first born Matthew and whenever I wear this necklace I know that at one point I questioned my faith but I was able to turn to Heavenly Father and never be left alone. I was still loved and watched over. My faith has grown so much. And now attending church just down the road from where my church was created is incredible! We know and believe that Heavenly Father and Jesus came to Joseph Smoth in a vision in the Sacred Grove. I get to see the grove every week. I will never stop appreciating this beautiful gift. I went to the Sacred Grove Sunday as a family and it was great bringing my son there to experience it all. This picture was on a bench in the middle of the Sacred Grove!
And this picture was take outside of the Snith Fanily Farmhouse with our two Elder friends. (Elder Coffey and Elder Keller)
In conclusion (yes I know high school teachers HATE when ending anything in the last paragraph with "in conclusion") do not be afraid to speak up. Because Heavenly Father may send his message for you to speak up though someone else. Don't stop having faith ..ever.
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