Reflecting

So I have hd this pregnancy countdown app now on my phone for the last 28 or so weeks..shoot maybe even longer. I'm not going to lie being die in April had been worrying me most of the time. This April 9th marks 3 years since I gave birth to matthew who wasn't able to love (only being 20 weeks gestation) and he is now with Heavenly Father and my family members in Heaven. Last year I found out I was pregnant about the 13th or April and not even a week later it didn't take and I had a quick miscarriage. So when I found out I was pregnant and die in April I was so skeptical. But through the ability to recover priesthood blessings and prayers and lots of extra medical appointments to help calm my nerves we have made it to the final days of counting down. 

19,days or less is crazy to think about.  "Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and cometh down from the Father of lights, with whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning."

James 1:17 

This verse ha been sticking out to me for sure over the course of this pregnancy. I am so beyond blessed. I know my husband feels the same way. He is so excited to have our second son in the way. 

Being LDS we believe families are forever and we can all be sealed to our family members. Even our first little guy Matthew. So I have to say at church is the one place where I have felt so comfortable when people ask me "how many kids do you have? Is this your first child?" And I can firmly answer this is my second child but our first is in Heaven.