Support through struggle

I am going to be honest and admit I have been struggling lately. If you are just reading in I have been struggling with fertility issues since I lost a baby at 5 months pregnant back in April of 2012. This past April I had an early loss after having some extra help from the doctors. I tried again this past month with no luck. The next step is a shot to help me each day and it's not covered by insurance. It's nearly 1000$ and we have just spent too much in the last two years already. I've thrown in the towel right now on motherhood. Then yesterday(seeing as I am writing this at 3am) I went to a local baseball game. I had my mom and her new husband there along with his parents, my siblings and my husband. A couple rows in front of me I see this amazing family with 5 kids. One of them is a young girl with cancer. She was the most beautiful girl I have seen and the biggest and brightest smile. So I decided to see if social media would pay off and I began tweeting to the local team and it's mascot. I simply kept asking for her to be visited by the mascot to make her night. 3-4 tweets later and a manager of the stadium surprised this little girl with gifts from the team. He then saw she had siblings and soon included them. Her family was taken up to the press box and had a meet and greet with the mascot Spike. The feelings I had of joy and excitement when it actually worked are priceless. I never came forward to the family but I did stop the manager and thank him,telling him I was the one who messaged and how grateful I was to be heard. I text my mom that if I can't be a mom right now...I am going to help those who are fighting so hard to still be a parent. 

“Whosoever shall put their trust in God shall be supported in their trials, and their troubles, and their afflictions, and shall be lifted up at the last day.”

—Alma 36:3

So I will put my faith continuously in my Heavenly Father. I will do the right thing for others and myself because at the end of the day that feeling is what I need. I will be a parent in other ways and who knows what the future holds besides HIM.  I am thankful my mom raised me to think of others. 

 This is a picture of the little girl being sneaky and trying to move up a few rows from her parents. Her laugh was so cute!